BOYS!!!! why does it have to be so complicated!!??

I don't even know why i'm pissed off but i am!! i somehow acquired this new friend with benefits-so we r sleeping together but aren't technically in a relationship....it was working but he kinda wants 2 b in a relationship and i kinda don't. its so complicated cos now i'm starting to have feelings for him. and that only leads to more complications because the people i care about generally see my absolute worst side!! he's away in cairns at the moment and i'm totally pissed off at him for some unknown reason. GRRR. i think i'm more annoyed at myself then at him. and i probably just miss him. i cant see myself ever figuring out this whole relationship thing.