boys...still complicated, a little more involved now

well its been a while, i can hardly believe i haven't written for 2 months! to my credit, i have been busy, working full time before uni starts... so the guy that i totally didnt want a relationship is-of course-still in the picture, as my boyfriend. i have no clue why that happened but i like the way things are. i feel comfortable with him, although there are things i dont like about him-i suppose that comes with the territory. i never thought i would be interested in anyone like him, but hings change. valentines day is on saturday. its my first valentines day with a boyfriend, so h is under a bit of pressure. not that he knows about the pressure... i reminded him last week and i havent said anything about it since, so im hoping he remembers. if he doesnt-well lets just say hes in big trouble!! i know its just a silly day, but he never does anything romantic for me, so i really want him to make an effort. is that too much to ask? effort doesnt have to cost any money. its so hard to read boys, i honestly have no clue what he thinks. sometimes i think that we're just hanging by a thread, and if i do something wrong or act too clingy he'll just drop me. 

and another thing.. i I HAVEN'T MET HIS FRIENDS. ive met all his family, but none of his friends. i'll admit, im a little pissed about it. i bring the subject up every now and then (ok twice) but he just says that he wants to get away from them because he wants to stop doing drugs. he says im his outlet, i havent MET his friends but i hear all about them. im a little confused. is he embarrassed of me?? why wont he let me meet them? should i be worried??? comments welcome!!!